some kind of normal. or not

i was happy to see jin and maku sewing again. this time with grandma's help.

and i am taking photographs again. and blogging. i should slow down, i might start eating again and gain back all the weight i lost so effortlessly ^.^ no wait, not to worry, i am not back to showering daily yet. ;)

a tango of confusion

Oh how our lives have changed! I go to work and the children go to summer camp. It was the second day of camp today and Maku was looking a little confused. He asked, "Mommy, everyone is dressed differently from yesterday. How am I suppose to remember who they are?"

We had a surprise visit last week. He rolled down some hills and away he went. Don't ask. He's just as confused as Maku was this morning.

here, but not really

lots of nieces, lots of fun
jin is spending her summer here
two more sisters coming to visit
and all I could think about is how much fun Dave will have rolling down this sloped yard
i wonder if the children are thinking the same thing

moving on...

Thanks to each and every one of you for all your support and advice. I started this blog last year as a place to jot down memories of my final year being an at-home mom, little did I know it would also be my last year of being a wife. Now it's best if I stop talking about this, last thing I need is for my happy little corner to turn into a divorce blog. :)
Tomorrow the children and I will be flying to Pennsylvania. We have plenty loved ones there ready to embrace us and offer us love and support in every way.
Today we say our goodbyes. And I just don't know how. How do you say goodbye to your favorite person in the world? How do you say goodbye to family? How do you pack away a lifetime of dreams, love and commitment in one single day?
Am I making any sense? yes? no? I better go, see you back here in a few days.

the three of us

finding a sense of peace and comfort in nature
those brief moments of joy
amidst our sorrow and grief

beach ready

new swim trunks for our little friends made from Jin's old sundress
Summer here we come!

Blue Sky

"Daddy, you are my blue sky."
Now Daddy is leaving us. And just like that...our sky turned gray.